Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Benign Giant Cell Tumor(reposted)

               Nine months months had passed, I can still reminisce my life at the asylum, a very tragic experience that I can never wash them away. It is like a window of the past that I can't close them inside my heart.
               In the month of April when the doctor had diagnosed me that i had a giant cell tumor. I was unconscious and got panic and I didn't know what I do. We went to a public hospital near our town and they checked me up. They wasn't able to determine yet what was it and they only gave me some sort of medicine for one week. After the prescribed day, we went back to the hospital. The medicine that they gave was not effectual so the doctor decided to put me in the x-ray room but there were no available films so I decided to go to an x-ray clinic near the hospital. We went back again after one day with my aunt. I was shocked when the orthopedic surgeon explained to me that my left leg, below my knee was already eaten by a tumor and it has a great chance that the cells will become malignant and my leg will be cut-off. We decided to transfer in a more productive hospital, a kilometer away from our town and I had also a chicken fox that time. The surgeon also said that I have a tumor in the bone. He instructed us to go back after one week and he added that I must undergo operation and they will going to clean, fill out the tumor and apply bone cement on it but the bone cement was costly and I need 2 packs. I felt happy that time and hoping that  my leg can now be cured. Lately, I got operated and stayed at the asylum for four days and I went home in the fourth day with the ambulance as our transportation. It was about two months when my left leg is stretched and I cannot bend it as I used to in my right leg. we went back and forth many times in the hospital for me to be checked up. upon coming home, my aunt noticed that it was like swelling so we went back the next day. It started to shed a little blood from the fresh opening of my wound. When the assistant nurse opened my wound, many blood came out and it is like a volcano that burst lava on it.  It was so afflictive at that moment and every-time I carry my leg causes me to feel hurt so I stayed and sit in a wheel chair. My family and I were trembling and nervous because from that time, I gradually make blood to come out everyday.  We transferred to another clinic, a private one. the doctor was kind and patient. He looked at my x-ray result  and take some generalizations on it. He said that I must be operated again but heir gadgets was not complete and not compatible to use. He referred us to his friend who is a doctor in a private clinic, now hospital several kilometer away from the province but before that, I need to undergo blood transfusion yet to change the loss blood in our town hospital. A couple of days, we went to what the doctor had referred us. I was fearful and anxious from that moment. the doctor talked to my aunt and the doctor examined my x-ray results. I was puzzled if what are they talking all about. He then talked to me with a calm voice and said, " Do you know what disease is in you already? tumor is a beginning cancer but what is in you is not malignant, its a benign tumor. I will give you two options, first we will save your leg through bone grafting but you cannot bend it anymore and this is a very risky operation. Secondly, we will cut-off your leg, the affected area and replace it with artificial leg, we will do the amputation process". From that time, we went home full of grieving. I had sleepless nights if what option shall I follow. I asked God in choosing the right one for me. I asked God to give me a sign and he did it. I accidentally read one passage in the bible and say " If you want to follow me, put on your cross not for your own sake, but for the sake of many". I think many times and when my mind is settled, I have already a decision, I'm ready to be amputated.
          I did not think my personal interest at that time. I thought my family's future. I did it for them even-though it is painful in my part. I thanked God that I was not depressed but he anointed and guided  me to stand firm still even I am already a product of amputation. I believe God has still a plan for me.

46 comments:

Axl Powerhouse Production Inc, said...

sabi nga nila, everything a reason why god gave all the problems and trial at sa tamang panahon you will know that, maybe u will inpsire a lot of pipol to some of your success in the future. we dont know, but still think a positive sign on it :D

Mayáp a yábak pu,, HAve a happie and bless wednesday!! :D share the smile :D

khantotantra said...

nakakalungkot naman ang story. parang nakakasad na minsan hindi ko pinapahalagahan ang meron ako. I should be thankful na kumpleto pa ang aking ktawan. Your story is an eye opener at makakatulong sa ibang tao na matuto sa iyong story.

Ronster said...

isa lang ang masasabi ko...you are very brave. you have the strongest faith that helped you.

ISTAMBAY said...

sayo ba ito? napakalungkot ng kwwnto.. ramdam ko.. kahanga hanga ka parekoy. saludo ako sa katapangan mo. sa iba hindi na matatanggap yan.. or even sakin mangyari siguro baka hanggang ngayon, galit ako sa mundo.

eye opener ito sa ibang walang inisip kundi problema..

enjoy life parekoy... salamat sa kwento mo.. :)

emmanuelmateo said...

AXL: oo, my reason kung bakit nangyari sa akin ito.salamat sayo.

khantotantra: its the saddest thing that happened in my life. u must be thankful na hindi ka gaya ko.

emmanuelmateo said...

Ronster: OO i believe that I have a strong faith kaya nalagpasan ko yan.

Istambay: ganyan ang feeling ko nun, akala ko wala na akong silbi dito sa mundo, galit din ako sa sarili ko at sa mundi nun.

EMOTERA said...

awwww.. So sad. So sorry to hear that. Mahirap magdecision ng ganun pero ikaw napakatapang mo. Smile and be thankful pa rin kay God sa mga blessings :)

Ingat pa lagi :) God bless!

hard2getxxx said...

ang lungkot nga! anyway everything happens for a reason kay god

stay strong

emmanuelmateo said...

Emotera: O I am very much thankful kay God,he never leaved me

hard2getxxx: yeah..he has plan for me.I know he will guide me all the way

~ JaY RuLEZ ~ said...

believe ako sau parekoy!

naantig ako sa wento mo...

ingat lage !
magandang umaga!

agustindhemie said...

Alam kong kinaya mo lahat ng mga pagsubok Emman..isa kang huwaran sa mga tao, stay strong and thank our almighty! Have faith always.

emmanuelmateo said...

Jay: salamat po kung ganun..naiiyak na ako sa mga comments niyo!

dhemie: thanks friend at anjan ka palagi para sa akin..

MOKS™ said...

Whatever God does, He does it so well...

Nga pala sensya kung hindi ako nakakapagbisita sa blog mo.. hindi kasi ako nakakapagbloghop sa ngyaon ang pangit ng internet connection ko dang bagal...hehehe

Ester Yaje said...

sana patuloy ka pang bigyan ng Panginoon ng lakas. :)

papaleng said...

Bro, napaka-inspiring ang story, Yes God is good and He has His plans set before us. Bro, muntik na rin maputol ang left leg ko noon, But Iask god na please no. and He gave the desire of my heart. Now, I am a busy involve sa Kanyang ministry. I am pastoring one of our mission church in Victoria, Laguna. BTW,, Ilokano rin ang heritage ko from Cabugao, Ilocos Sur.


Bro, pwede ba i-post ko link ng blog ko, http://echowhisperer-papaleng.blogspot.com/

Oreo said...

Hold on! You are one courageous man able to push through after experiencing such testing times..

I feel it's a perfect time also to thank everybody who in one way or another had helped you (yung nagdonate ng dugo sa transfusion mo, pamilyang sumuporta sa iyo et al)

Buti naman that you have trusted HIM during those times... God loves you... and you felt it... that's Faith!

Ladawan said...

hello ading. i don't know what to say. i wanna hold you and comfort you, but i believe you are a very strong person. your story made my heart cry and opened my eyes. na realize ko na napaka liit ng mga dlahin ko sa buhay compared sa mga pinagdaanan mo pero here I am, parang sisiw na nakakulong. your story made me feel that inspite of all the problems we have, God is still there to guide us and strengthen us. pls. do take care always ading, ewan ko pero i feel so very close to you. keep the faith.

DEMIGOD WINZTON said...

YES, KEEP THE FAITH, BRO!
YOU'VE GONE TOO FAR,
YOU ENDURED THE HARDEST THINGS WE CUD IMAGINE OF SOMEONE WITH THAT CONDITION.
DWELL ON GODLY THOUGHTS, KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS IN WAYS YOU CAN.
YOU CAN EVEN SHARE GOD'S WORDS AND HIS GREATNESS THROUGH YOUR BLOG,
AND I'M SURE HE WILL BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY MORE.
PRAY WITHOUT CEASING.

TRY LISTENING TO THIS. ONE OF MY FAVE SONGS. You are my World by Hillsong

emmanuelmateo said...

Salamat po sa inyo kuya Mokx, Ester Yaje, Papaleng, Oreo, Demigod Wintzon at Ladawan, You made me cry. Salamat po talaga at na appreciate niyo ang story ng buhay ko. Heto na ang pinakapait at pinakamahirap na aking naranasan na dumating sa aking buhay. Katotohanang ayaw ko mang tanggapin pero kailangang ipagpatuloy pa ang aking buhay.


Sa lahat po, maraming salamat sa inyo dahil pinakalakas at pinapatatag niyo ang loob ko dahil hindi niyo ako iniwan. Sana hindi kayo magbago. Mahal ko kayo.

ABoyNamedXander said...

hope your doign ok now..

ARchieVINer said...

Bro... Saludo ako sayo. I'm sure God will blessed u and ur family. Always keep ur faith in Him. Inspirasyon ka sakin.. :)

JemJem's thoughts said...

We should always believe in happy ending talaga, cause everything happens for a reason.. ^_^ God Bless sau

Lhuloy said...

sana manatili ka pa din matatag at positibo sa kabila ng lhat..di ka Nya pababayaan..lagi kang manalangin..sama din kta sa prayers ko...ingats plagi...(^^,)

Emaniuz said...

Believe in the power of positive possibility.

Akoni said...

Are you okay now?

Believe ako sayo..I wish you all the best of luck...

Keatondrunk said...

just have a strong faith in God, i know everything has a purpose. kudos pre!

Leonrap said...

DREAM. BELIEVE. SURVIVE. STARSTRUCK! ahahaha....

musingan said...

hindi nga ako nagkamali sa pagpalo sa iyo... I've learn something from your story... wow... what you've did was brave... Hinahangaan kita....

Ka-Swak said...

i feel sad while reading ur post. mahirap man tanggapin pero wala tayong magagawa, Diyos lamang ang nakakaalam. wag ka mawawalan ng pag asa. isasama kita sa panalangin ko kaibigan.

uno said...

hindi ko alam kong anu nasabi ko last time but...

YOU HAVE A GOD!

nadyan sya palagi...

Nelo Paralibot said...

What a sad story but interesting in a way that you may inspire people for having that strong personality and strong faith in God. I believe the next chapter of your life will become a big success. KEEP THE FAITH friend...

Kim, USA said...

I don't see your story as sad but a story that is fill of faith and hope with the LORD. As young as you are, you've decided to do the things that many of us can't do but you did. And I am so proud of you!!
Keep the faith, don't lost hope, life is a miracle. Hugs!!

Manang Kim

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Vhincci Subia said...

I can't really think what encouraging and inspiring words to say right now... But really, I admire you... :)
Thank God, it's only benign and not malignant...

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yma_mystika said...

I was pleased by your story anak..I believed on you and thanks God you surpassed the challenge..keep up and live life very positively.

Arvin U. de la Peña said...

tama..ang lahat ay may dahilan..be strong lang lagi..

Sean said...

hi ading. for me this is very inspiring. it shows everyone that there are trials that we can overcome with faith in the lord. may you continue to be showered with his grace. life is a blessing. one doesn't need to be physically perfect for them to be complete. god bless!

emmanuelmateo said...
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ash_32791 said...

have faith in God,,I know you are strong..

Mom Daughter Style said...

thanks for sharing this story, it's touching. you are a brave man.

i hope God continue to bless you. Ingats

Diamond R said...

reading your story reminds me of a book " when life hurts by Philip Yancey " Understanding God's place in your pain.

this experience and your faith become an invitation to hope - doorway to his gracious gifts.

God bless you.

lina@happy family said...

Salute to your strength! I agree, God have a beautiful plan for you.
Thanks for visiting :)

rah said...

Be strong my friend. You are still very lucky. it's just a phase. Don't lose hope. You are not alone. Be strong. Ask guidance from God. It will be ok. It's not that bad. You will see. Hug.

Raft3r said...

life is good.
it always is.
good luck sayo.

Gooeyboy said...

Maybe you were destined to do more with just one leg rather than two. May Orchard ang lola ko dati, minsan ang mga puno, pinuputuln ng sanga sa ibang bahagi, para mamunga ng marami. Gusto pa siguro ng Diyos na mamung ka ng marami.

bulakbolero.sg said...

naiyak ako dito sa istorya mo man.