They say that the greatest pleasure is our life and the greatest pain is death but for me, the greatest happiness is my life and the greatest pain is to become an amputee, and to become a physically challenged.
I did not perceived that my life would be like this. Although I already accepted it, it doesn't mean that I already forgotten everything but I reminisce them every moment of my life. It's so hard for me to limit everything that I do. Jamming with friends, go out with my family and have a bonding. I used to stay at home rather than to go out with them. Other people say that they want to avoid pain and suffering. A pain that could give their heart an intense pity and suffering that could make them hopeless and oppressed. But for me, I enjoy every pain and suffering and I accept them with tranquility in my mind. I used to become a stoic person, those that enjoy pain and suffering with fortitude. All of what is happening to me are like test papers that must be passed and if you are not going to pass it, you will be failed. My life is like a ball being dribbled, sometimes it goes up and sometimes it goes down but the more it goes down, the higher will I bounce. As a student, its so hard to continue my studies especially now that I am already an amputee but this is not the hindrance for me to continue and finish the battle of life because by this struggles, we are making ourselves strong and be motivated enough and I can claim in Romans 8:28 " I and all we know that all things work together for good to them that love God". I know He is with me all the time because Emmanuel is (God is with us). Now, I always ready myself because new semester will come again and it will be expected that more people would come to our school to study there. I am afraid that if they will see me, I will get to become shy to face them but who are they to belittle me? who are they to judge me?. I just bear in mind that I am more superior than them and I consider myself a winner because I already surpassed the greatest pain in my life.
In my life, I am sad but still happy, discouraged yet happy, in exile and yet happy and hopeless yet still happy because man is created to contemplate the sun. I don't care what people say as long as I'm strong, I will not lose hope.