Thursday, January 13, 2011

My Bestfriend

       This letter was sent to me by a friend of mine through email. Let us read his story. Be inspired to his story.

          I've tried my best to remove this feelings that I have for me to forget her face on my mind and her precious name in my heart but as I force myself to forget all about her, I'm slowly killing myself. I love her for no such reason. I want to see her face even just for a moment of her smile because seeing her smiling is the reason for me to live and love her endlessly.
          She is my best friend. i could not believe that I fall to her. She was a neighbor and a childhood friend whom  I later considered as my best friend but those ordinary expectations turned to something different. something extraordinary, a special feeling that touched the depth of my heart. Before this all happens, I was attracted to someone else, she's my crush, a dear to me. I dare to share this kind of feeling I had for my crush to my best friend. i let her saw the picture of her. I never saw any hint of jealousy on her face, so I thought that I was perfectly okay with her. I don't know what made my best friend so special to me. i just knew that when my best friend told me that she got a boyfriend, I became jealous. On that time, my feelings for my crush had deeply vanished. All I knew was.. I was hurt, hurt by my best friend's revelations. I shed tears that night, tears of solitude. Since then, she hardly spent time with me. She stopped hanging around with me visiting at our house where we used to enjoy others company. She always with her boyfriend's barkada and this really bothered me. I would be hypocrite if I say that I don't love nor like her. Now i am totally in love with my best friend. My best friend who is now committed to someone else. I was in pain. I'm facing the hard task of mustering the confidence and courage to reveal my love for her. But then her cousin told me that she will be leaving and I don't know the reason why she had to do that. I felt the pain inside of me, thinking that she will be leaving without knowing my true feelings for her. "That her best friend loves her quietly, all this time"
          How I wish i could tell her everything..
         How I wish she could love me too..
          But how? I'm just her best friend. I fear that she cannot accept me, the feelings that I had for her that she will think that the friendship we had is full of pretending.Come what may, my love will always be there for my best friend. Never would I think that in love, there is a side from a happy one to a lonely ending.
          I'll always be waiting, longing for that day.. the right time, the right place when all that I feel will be revealed to her.
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15 comments:

Axl Powerhouse Network said...

pambihira naman to.. ang aga ng sad entry.. pero ika nga nila wala naman mawawala kong sasabihin kung anung nararamdaman... :D

emmanuelmateo said...

oo nga naman po..mapapalaya ka lang kpag sinabi mo sa minamahal mo ang iyong nararamdaman..

Lone wolf Milch said...

yes it really hurts grabe
kasi you love that person but tingin lang niya sa yo is just a friend or like a brother or sister.

and nakakatakot din ireveal sa kanya na love mo siya in a romantic way kasi baka magiba yung tingin niya sa yo

emmanuelmateo said...

tama ka po kuya hard2get..wla kang mgagawa kundi accept the reality na hanggang magkaibigan lng kayo dba..

uno said...

first...drwa the the line...know exactly what you feel...magkakaiba ang admiration, infatuation, jealousy and love...

second. what kind of love you have...maraming klase yan...

third pag nalaman mo na... accept...

fourth... dare to show...

fifth: be brave enough to face the consequences... they will always be two side of the story... may nawawala, may duamarating...

guess post ko kaya ito hehehe...

thanks for visiting frequently sa blog ko

Sean said...

aww. sad naman nito. pero baka makatulong yung sinabi ni uno sa taas sa friend mo.

emmanuelmateo said...

kuya uno: madali po yang sabihin pero mahirap gawin..lhat nman tayo nadadala sa emosyon dba?kpag andun kna d mo na maiisip yan kc mhal mo yung tao eh.inuuna kc natin ang puso kysa sa isip.

rose said...

Hello Kuya uno,

Wonderful post kahit sad nga ang storya...

Natuwa ako sa mga post mo.. Bagong follower mo nga pala ako..

ito nga pala ang blog ko..

I'm into fiction writing and other blah blah stuff...
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and
www.gigelves.blogspot.com ang mga blogs ko... Sana mavisit mo..
Thanks..

emmanuelmateo said...

salamat sa appreciation babbie Dee.

Diamond R said...

walang akong masabi.basta life is beautifula kaya keep on going on

emmanuelmateo said...

Diamond R: oo tama ka po..kahit anong mangyari, life should go on.di ba.

Unknown said...

nakakalungkot naman ang story na yan..marami naman jan eh.there are many fishes in the sea

Unknown said...

oo tama ka dhemie.makakahanap ka rin ng taong magmamahal at mamahalin ka ng tunay. just believe.

Crescentlady said...

that secret can poison all over you... but I think its too late malaman man ya, meron naring syang iba...

I suggest just pray for her happiness nalang.. I can relate to this...

Have a nice day! :-)

gelovsky said...

At least you did what you think is right. No regrets after all ^_^

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